James' Journal

The following is a work of fiction following the events of the novel The Low Notes and contains spoilers.

September 28, 2012


First break up. Check! Sorry to be a downer but what else do I really have to write about besides the fact that Nick kicked me to the curb last night? How is it that the guy who took a million years (okay, like six months) to come out to anyone other than me is suddenly leaving me in the dust and going off with some other dude?

I called Nina and I felt a little better after hearing her voice. I guess I'm just at this place where I feel like I have no idea what I'm doing with my life. Not that I was ready to marry Nick and settle down and all that but I felt like he was part of my vision for at least the next year...maybe longer. Honestly, I can't think of a single thing that I've been sure about since graduation.

The truth is I am lost. Lost and now alone. I sound like a freaking sad song. Here's what I know : I hate college so far, I do NOT want to work for my father once it's all over with no matter how many times he tells me what he could pay me (and it's a lot...like a LOT), and I have this overwhelming need for an adventure. I need to step out of my comfort zone and do something unexpected.

Maybe Nick leaving wasn't the worst thing in the world. Maybe I should thank him for opening my eyes and putting me on the path towards changing things for good.... Fuck that, I'm not thanking him.

I'll send him a postcard from Happyville when I get there though. I'll get there...I just need to find that adventure.

-James

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Maybe James' will find an adventure to take some day... you never know ;) 

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